Sunday, April 20, 2025 (Happy Easter)

  Sunday, April 20, 2025 (Happy Easter)

Happy Easter!

It's early Sunday morning and I'm in bed thinking about things. I had some dreams but I don't recall what I dreamt now. I'm thinking back over the years. I remember the various times of my life.

I don't think anyone would want to hear the story of my life. I don't know if anyone would believe all of things that have been a part of my life.

Those years spent being religious. Wasted. 

I recall seconds in time. It's strange looking back. I would have done things differently.

I sometimes wonder why I did certain things. I guess I've gone with the flow of things. I just waited for the next thing to occur.

I remember the times I'd sit and an old man's mouth would be on my cock. I was almost always somewhere else in my mind as they sucked my dick. I wanted it so much leading up to when he would place his lips around my tip. I was in the moment as his mouth was filled with my penis. I would feel a rush as I climaxed into him. I would regret afterwards. I would regret allowing an old man to suck me.

I recall times I enjoyed. Kissing guys I found attractive. A few times having a different guy's dick in my mouth or inside of me. I miss having sex with guys my age. I have not been with a guy who I was attracted to since California.

I'm uncertain about what I'm doing and what I will do...

I have so much regret. I have memories of moments in time I would live again if I could. I can see myself in those moments.

I'm lonely. I'm anxious. Life is going to change for me soon. I don't know how I will react to the changes coming...