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Monday, April 28, 2025

  Monday, April 28, 2025


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Monday again.


I hope to get more done today.



I'm not religious if religious means going to a building once a week

and sitting in a room while an old man uses a falsely interpreted book to tell you

how to live your life.


I have plans for the rest of this week.



I recall the times I've been with old men.

It was easy once I came across them online. I don't remember the exact process

Of finding them but I vividly remember

Being with them.


I would sit there as my dick was in their mouth.

I would focus on the images in my mind.

Images of guys my age.

Sometimes I would open my eyes and glance down.

I would watch his head move up and down.


I've met old men online who I had already met IRL.


It's weird being somewhere and seeing an old man who has sucked my cock before in a place

where the other people have no idea

that this man had drove me to his house.

They had no idea that the old man sitting beside me

was on his knees in front of me those times.

I'd wear swim trunksmostofthetimeso it would be easier to pull down.


i met him a few times.

it was always strange being with him knowing that this man was the same man who sat next to me

a few years ago in the same building I was seeing him again.



It was always weird afterwards. The awkward small talk.


A man with children my age.


I've had encounters with old men that were stranger. One time being in a public restroom.

It was a bigger room for it being a restroom.

He was in front of me.

My penis in his mouth.

I couldn't focus because of all of the people coming in and out of the room.



i no longer meet with old men.




i want to find my first boyfriend. I don't know if that is something that I will ever have.


A first career is another thing that I don't believe I'll ever have.


I'm uncertain about what to do today and what to do in general. I'm trying to figure things out

While doubting myself being able to do anything.



i plan to continue to include the link to my fundraiser. I hope that I'm wrong about there being no one out there

who cares about me enough to help me.



it's early. I've completed my daily sweepstakes and instant win games. I woke up around 5

And started my sweepstakes and instant win games. I feel like going to sleep.


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