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Friday, January 24, 2025

 Friday, January 24, 2025 I'm depressed. I think about the fact that the odds of me finding my first career and first boyfriend are worse than winning the lottery without buying a lottery ticket. I spend almost everyday and every hour alone. I don't have plans the next few days. I want to work on my writing and other things but I feel like going to bed most of the time. March 15 will be my birthday. As usual I won't have a party and I won't have any gifts. I don't know what to do and I don't think anyone can help me. I don't know why I keep going...
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Thursday, January 23, 2025

 Thursday, January 23, 2025 I went to the library near me for a program I've been attending weekly for the past couple of weeks. I only found out that the program was canceled for the day when I arrived at the library and waited for the program to begin. I deleted my Taimi profile because I realized that spending anymore time on there would be a waste of time.  I went to Walmart today and redeemed the two coupons for Edward's pies. Individual pies, two slices each box. I don't plan to go anywhere tomorrow. I often imagine what it'd be like to have my first boyfriend. What it would be like to have my first career. What it'd be like to live in my first home...

Wednesday, January 22, 2025

 Wednesday, January 22, 2025 Last night there was snow. I didn't believe it would snow but it did. I stayed in bed later today because I didn't want to get out of bed. I have plans for tomorrow morning. I'm anxious about the future. 

Tuesday, January 21, 2025

 Tuesday, January 21, 2025 It's cold. There's a chance of snow today. I had a ride to pick up some produce. I don't plan to go anywhere else today. I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow because of the weather. I have plans for Thursday and Friday. I feel like going to bed. I want to work on my writing but I don't know if I have the energy to do much of anything today. I often wonder if I'll ever find my first boyfriend...

Monday, January 20, 2025

 Monday, January 20, 2025 Today is a day of mourning as this country moves closer to being a dictatorship. I'm anxious about what's going to happen next. I have plans for this week. It's cold today and this week. I had several strange and vivid dreams. I feel tired. I need to get something done today because I feel like I never get anything done. I want to find my first boyfriend soon.

Sunday, January 19, 2025

 Sunday, January 19, 2025 I went to Queer Game Night last night. There were 2 cute guys there last night. We played the Ticket to Ride Europe game I received for Christmas. I need to read the rules a few times before I play it again. I stayed in bed late today and I feel like going back to bed. I believe if the TikTok ban is not done away with then we should revolt. We should stop the silencing of our voices by the rich and powerful who run the country. I'm open to any guy asking me on dates. I'm single and ready for my first boyfriend. Please don't be shy. I'm not interested in older men, older generations. I'm open to being friends with the older generations. I sat by one of them last night. I don't want to have a romantic relationship with someone of those older generations. I don't know what I'll do the rest of this day. I want to work on my writing. I'm looking to begin my first career. It's not going to be easy for me considering I'm Au...

Saturday, January 18, 2025

 Saturday, January 18, 2025 Yesterday while riding my new bicycle to the Queer Collective program I was reminded of the fact that I live in a rural state with a large population of naive people. Most of the time I miss living in a city. This evening I'm attending the Queer Game Night. It rained today so it will be damp and cold tonight. I plan to begin writing on a daily basis but I don't know when I'll start. I keep entering sweepstakes for houses with the hope of winning a home so that I will not be homeless in the future. My new bicycle is perfect for my longer bike rides. I hope to figure something in regards to my first career soon...