Friday, January 24, 2025 I'm depressed. I think about the fact that the odds of me finding my first career and first boyfriend are worse than winning the lottery without buying a lottery ticket. I spend almost everyday and every hour alone. I don't have plans the next few days. I want to work on my writing and other things but I feel like going to bed most of the time. March 15 will be my birthday. As usual I won't have a party and I won't have any gifts. I don't know what to do and I don't think anyone can help me. I don't know why I keep going...
Thursday, January 23, 2025 I went to the library near me for a program I've been attending weekly for the past couple of weeks. I only found out that the program was canceled for the day when I arrived at the library and waited for the program to begin. I deleted my Taimi profile because I realized that spending anymore time on there would be a waste of time. I went to Walmart today and redeemed the two coupons for Edward's pies. Individual pies, two slices each box. I don't plan to go anywhere tomorrow. I often imagine what it'd be like to have my first boyfriend. What it would be like to have my first career. What it'd be like to live in my first home...