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Saturday, September 27, 2025 I'm sitting here watching The American Housewife. I'm watching it again. I'm tired. I attended the trans longue support group last night. It's through the Los Angeles LGBTQ center and it is every Friday night. I keep thinking about past moments while trying to avoid triggering moments.  I imagine being back in California. It's been so long. I know things won't be exactly like they were when I was there before but there's no place that would be like things were before. I thought about the idea of moving back to the Columbia area but things would not be the way they were before. I lived down there for years and if I lived there again nothing would change. I want to live somewhere familiar with the potential for change. I need familiar but I also need the possibility for something completely different. I'm tired of being stuck. I've felt stuck these past few years. I miss my old routine. The only way to move forward is to mo...

 Friday, September 26, 2025 This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k I'm still in this residential facility in Greenville County South Carolina. I'm still unable to leave the property without someone coming to sign me out. I've been going through a difficult time. I often think about her and how much I miss her. I often think about my cat, Junior. I hope he's doing well. I often think about everything that was stolen from me including the money.

Wednesday, September 17, 2025 Wednesday morning. Last night I attended 2 zoom meetings. The first was the writing group that meets each Tuesday. The other one is the Trans Longue that meets the first and third Tuesday. It's another day stuck here. This morning I was thinking about camera operating. I operating cameras. I also miss photography with cameras.  I hate being in this in-between place. I need to get my life started. I want to be a TV showrunner. I need to start writing but I no longer have a laptop to write on. I'm planning to figure out a more complete daily routine for the duration of being here. I feel like a prisoner here with a life sentence. I'm trying to get through each day but it's not easy. I'd like to have a boyfriend. I'm tired of being alone. I don't know how I'm going to meet him since I'm in this facility. My sinuses are bothering me. Pride in Columbia SC is approaching. I missed out on Outfest because I was in the hospital E...

 Saturday, September 13, 2025   This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k I'm trying to get through another Saturday here. It's been 3 months since I was removed from my home. June 03 2025 was the last time I saw my mom. She died in July. I still can't believe that she's dead. I miss her so much. I stuck in this place. I'm hopeful about moving back to California...

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Monday, August 25, 2025 It's another morning here. I can't believe I'm stuck here in this place. It's difficult to believe that my mom's gone and my cat's somewhere in a foster home. It's so difficult to believe that pretty much everything I owned was stolen including a large amount of money. The old man that lives in the same house as me constantly mumbles into his phone. His voice is irritating. He's hard of hearing. He constantly calls me a different name though he knows my name. I have a meeting with my caseworkers tomorrow and I hope they will be helpful. I'm attending a baseball game tomorrow with my friend Gary and the other church he attends. I'm looking forward to being back in California... I hope it happens soon.

Sunday August 24, 2025 It's a new week and a new day. I'm still here at this place. I'm feeling like I want to go back to sleep.  My friend Gary is out of town but will be back in town for us to go to the LGBTQ support group at FBC. The meeting with my caseworkers is in a couple of days. My hope is that they will support my goal of moving back to California. I'm looking forward to being back in California. I'm planning on watching the Livestream of Christ Chapel of the Valley. My church in North Hollywood. My hope is that I will be able to move to North Hollywood.  If my mom were alive or if I had all of my things I would hesitate about moving back. I'm tired of being here.

 Saturday, August 23, 2025   This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Saturday, August 23, 2025 It's another Saturday here. I'm trapped here. I can't leave the property without being signed out. The only friend I have who is willing and somewhat able to come and sign me out won't be available tomorrow morning. I plan to watch the livestream of Christ Chapel of the Valley on FB tomorrow. My friend should be back in time for us to go to the LGBTQ support group meeting at FBC. I believe I have support for the trip back to California but I need housing in North Hollywood. I'm open to living in other areas. I need help obtaining my benefits there. I need as many resources there as possible. I'm depressed and anxious here with no support. I need help. I need as much help as I can get...

 Tuesday, August 19, 2025   This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-jasons-journey-back-to-california/cl/o?utm_campaign=fp_sharesheet&utm_content=amp13_t1&utm_medium=customer&utm_source=copy_link&lang=en_US&attribution_id=sl%3A9e4c851e-95f0-45f5-981b-c94bd71b0989&ts=1755517501 Tuesday, August 19, 2025 It's another Tuesday. I'm still here. I need help obtaining my benefits in California. I'm Autistic with ADHD. I need help moving back to California. I'm currently in DSS custody in Greenville sc. I don't know what to do. I texted my caseworkers yesterday about moving to California. I have not heard back. I'm feeling horrible today. I keep thinking about being back in California. I need out of here soo.n..  

 Monday, August 18th, 2025   This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-jasons-journey-back-to-california/cl/o?utm_campaign=fp_sharesheet&utm_content=amp13_t1&utm_medium=customer&utm_source=copy_link&lang=en_US&attribution_id=sl%3A9e4c851e-95f0-45f5-981b-c94bd71b0989&ts=1755517501 It's been a few weeks since I posted on my blogs on a daily basis. These past few months have been stressful and life changing. In case you don't know: I'm currently in DSS custody in Greenville County South Carolina. It's a longer story as to how I ended up here. My only family member passed away while I was here. I was living with her. I no longer have cats. My last remaining cat, Junior, was taken from me. Most of my belongings were stolen. I have so...

  This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Thursday, July 24, 2025 These past couple of months have been a nightmare. Taken from my home. I was told to pack for a couple of days. I was told that none of my things would be thrown out without me knowing. So many lies have been told to me since being in DSS custody. The money in the house that she had saved for years for me was stolen. Most of my things are being stolen or thrown away. A friend of mine has some of my clothes. I should have my own apartment soon unless that's another lie. I will need help replacing the things stolen from me. Im stuck here in Greenville County South Carolina at the Ruby Donald assisted living facility....

       This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Thursday, July 17, 2025 I'm still here at the Ruby Donald assisted living facility in Greenville County South Carolina. Some things have changed since I posted the last time. My only family member has passed away. I'm alone. I've had most of my belongings stolen or thrown away. I've had a large amount of money stolen from me. All of this happened since I've been in DSS custody. The older couple brought my bicycle to me this morning. My case manager from Brightstart came to visit me today. I don't know how soon it'll happen but I will have my own apartment soon...

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          This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Saturday, June 28, 2025 It's Saturday. I'm still in the Ruby Donald assisted living facility in Greenville County South Carolina. I'm stuck here with the old people. I can't leave the property without being signed out. I was supposed to receive a backpack from Chiquita Bananas but I haven't received it yet. I went to bed early and woke up early. I've completed my daily sweepstakes and instant win games for today. I've exercised a few times today. I plan to exercise more today.

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        This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Sunday, June 22, 2025 I'm still here at the Ruby Donald assisted living facility in Greenville County South Carolina. I've been here since Thursday. Before being taken here I was in the hospital ER since the 3rd of June. DSS removed me from my home. I was only able to bring a few of my things. I don't know what has happened to my things. They may have been stolen or thrown away by someone. DSS gave the key to the house to this evil person. DSS brought me some clothes, toiletries and a TV but I have plenty of clothes in my house. I don't like the clothes I have now. These are not clothes I'd wear and they're too big.

       This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Saturday, June 21, 2025 It's been a minute. I was in the hospital ER from the 3rd of June until this past Thursday morning. I'm now in Greenville, SC. They took me from Baptist Hospital in Columbia sc and moved me to Ruby Donald assisted living facility. I am not allowed to. leave the property. The food here isn't adequate in regards to nutrition. The hospital food was so much better. I've spoken with some of the old people here and they tell me that they don't do much aside from sitting around and watching TV. They told me they play bingo sometimes and have a Bible study. I lost interest in Bible studies after a Bible study led by people who know less about the Bible than me. A couple of the old people told me they go to places somet...

      This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Saturday, June 07, 2025 It's been a few days since posting. Some changes occurred. I'm in the hospital. They tell me that they are looking for a place for me to live. I don't know if I will post each day because most days are the same with me in a hospital bed.

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       This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Wednesday, May 28, 2025 It's Wednesday. I didn't go to the free lunch I typically attend because I had to go and pick up some produce. I had a ride. Last night was long. I didn't sleep well or long. I'm trying to decide whether or not I feel up to going somewhere this evening. I'm tired and I'm not feeling well...

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  Thursday, May 15, 2025 This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k f Thursday. I have no plans for today. I have plans for tomorrow evening. I have no idea what I'm doing...

  Wednesday, May 14, 2025 This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Wednesday. I went after some produce this morning. I am going to the dinner I go to most Wednesday evenings. The Queer Game night this Saturday has been canceled. I plan to attend the Queer Collective Friday. I have plans for Sunday. I have more plans for the rest of next week. I've been watching the new season of Andor. I plan to continue reading the book I checked out from the library in my community. I hope to finish it today so I can start reading the other book I checked out...

   Please visit and share my Gofundme. This blog is continued on my Patreon. Tuesday, May 13, 2025 It's Tuesday. I went to sleep late last night. It was after 3. I woke up several times early today and kept going back to sleep. I rode my bicycle to the D&D program at the center yesterday. I was given a ride home. On the way to the center I picked up a large half priced smoothie from Smoothie King. I post a blog each day. The full version is on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 I also have a Gofundme which I doubt will ever get funded. I need help but I doubt anyone is going to help me. https://gofund.me/be041287

  Monday, May 12, 2025 This blog is continued on my Patreon. Please visit and share my Gofundme. Monday, May 12, 2025 Monday. Yesterday I went to the center for ice cream Sundays. I had one. I could have painted a pot for a plant but I wasn't feeling like painting anything. I went to the library in the town across the river from my community. I attended a zine program. I had the zine I finished a couple of days ago and I was given 2 copies. Two copies are now available at the library. I began working on my next zine. I like making zines. On my way home it rained and my clothes were soaked by the time I arrived home. ...

 Sunday, May 11, 2025 Sunday. This blog is continued on my Patreon. Please visit and share my Gofundme. It's Mother's day. I'm planning to go to the center today for a program. I plan to go from the center to the library in the town across the river from my community for a zine program. I plan to attend the D&D program at the center tomorrow. I never know how the weather will affect my plans...

 Saturday, May 10, 2025 This blog is continued on my Patreon. Please visit and share my Gofundme. Saturday morning. It's early. I woke up early today and I have completed my sweepstakes and instant win games for today. I'm planning to go to the museum for the sensory morning and on my way home I will have a free lunch. I don't know what else I will do today. I have plans for tomorrow and Monday depending on the weather. I keep going. I keep getting up and going through each day with the hope that today will be the day that things begin to get better...

 Friday, May 09, 2025 I post the complete version of my blog on my Patreon. Visit and share my Gofundme. I went to bed late yesterday and I stayed in bed later this morning. I'm planning to attend the Autism program at the library in the town across the river from my community. Tomorrow morning I'm going to museum and a place for a free lunch. I have plans for Sunday and Monday...

  Thursday, May 08, 2025 Thursday. I'm posting the full version of this on my  Patreon . I was planning to attend the open mic that I was invited to but it looks like I won't be going anywhere today due to the weather. I have plans for the rest of the week but my plans could change depending upon the weather. I still haven't received any contributions to my fundraiser. I knew that no one would give... https://gofund.me/8598ffba

  Wednesday, May 07, 2025 https://gofund.me/e25a1148 https://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo https://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/writer https://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo2 Wednesday morning. I'm considering going to the DMV to obtain a free ID. I'm planning to go by Krispy Kreme for a free donut. I remember meeting the few guys that I was attracted to and wishing I could meet them again. I liked spending time with them. It's not just getting my dick sucked or topping or bottoming a cute guy. It's about spending time with a guy who I'm comfortable with and enjoy being around. Will I ever have a first career. I keep applying and I almost never get an interview. I have no idea what I'm doing. I keep thinking that tomorrow will be the day in which things begin to work out. I'm tired. I do not have much energy left. I am not motivated to do anything most days. I feel self conscious and uncertain about myself. I wonder if I'll ever have a fi...

 Tuesday, May 06, 2025 https://gofund.me/3ed6347b Tuesday. I didn't get the job at the bowling alley. I'm doing some laundry. I don't plan to go anywhere today. I'm considering what else I should do today. I have plans for the rest of the week but my plans could change due to the weather. These hours alone I think about things. I think about the future and the past. I hope things will improve soon...

  Monday, May 05, 2025 https://gofund.me/640c6c99 Monday. I have my interview today at the bowling alley. It's not a specific time but anytime during a certain hour. I'm unsure of myself. I have some ideas and goals. There are things I would like to do but I don't have the money or resources for anything. I will continue to apply to job openings. I have plans for this week but I don't know what the weather will be like...

  Sunday, May 04,2025 Sunday. https://gofund.me/df4bc34d I went to the Queer Game night yesterday. I'm planning to attend the dinner this evening. Last night I had a difficult time going to sleep. I woke up several times.  I have lunch plans. I have plans for this week.

  Saturday, May 03, 2025 https://gofund.me/9e9e0300 Saturday. I woke up later than usual this morning. I'm going to the Queer Game Night this evening. I have a ride. I'm planning to attend the dinner tomorrow evening. I have a job interview at a bowling alley on Monday. I'm uncertain about everything. I need a place to live. I want my first career. I need my first boyfriend. I feel weird about my body and my appearance. I feel weird about myself. I often look in the mirror and see someone that isn't me. I have a penis. I have these varying feelings towards my dick. I'm not getting rid of it but sometimes I have this feeling that's difficult to describe. I look at it and touch it and I feel as though it's foreign to me. I'm open to dating if a guy were to ask me. I want a boyfriend, a LTR. I don't want to be with someone I'm not attracted to and someone I'm comfortable with.. I've had so many experiences and some were very unique expe...

  Friday, May 02, 2025 Friday. https://gofund.me/a7630994 I picked up free flowers from Lowe's this morning. Tomorrow evening I'm going to the Queer Game Night. Sunday I'm planning to go a dinner in the evening.  I've applied to so many different jobs over the last few days. I doubt I'll get any of them. I'm anxious about the future.

  Thursday, May 01, 2025 https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-an-autistic-transnonbinary-individual Thursday. https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-an-autistic-transnonbinary-individual I have a meeting with Able SC today. I'm planning to go to Lowes tomorrow for a free flower. I've planned to go to a craft program at the library in my community on Saturday as well as the Queer Game Night but there's a strong chance of strong thunderstorms for Saturday. I'm uncertain about everything. I have ideas for what I'd do if I had the finances and resources but I don't have any finances and a limited amount of resources. I don't have a support system. I'm trying to figure out what to do on my own. One reason I no longer go to a church building is because I've seen what they are and how they're Only about the money. In general they don't help people. If there are churches out there that help people They could help me. I'm going to continue sharing my fundrais...