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Saturday, May 03, 2025

  Saturday, May 03, 2025


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Saturday.


I woke up later than usual this morning.


I'm going to the Queer Game Night this evening. I have a ride.


I'm planning to attend the dinner tomorrow evening.



I have a job interview at a bowling alley on Monday.




I'm uncertain about everything.


I need a place to live. I want my first career. I need my first boyfriend.



I feel weird about my body and my appearance. I feel weird about myself.

I often look in the mirror and see someone that isn't me.


I have a penis. I have these varying feelings towards my dick.

I'm not getting rid of it but sometimes I have this feeling that's difficult to describe.

I look at it and touch it and I feel as though it's foreign to me.


I'm open to dating if a guy were to ask me. I want a boyfriend, a LTR.

I don't want to be with someone I'm not attracted to and someone I'm comfortable with..



I've had so many experiences and some were very unique experiences. One time I met an older man.

I spent a few days with him. He sucked my cock several times.

At one point we were in a motel with some others. They were older people.


I was horny. This really big guy offered to help me.

I laid on the bed. He got on top of me. My dick was in him but he wasn't tight. I never finished.


I once was at a house. It wasn't your typical house.


I don't know how to describe it but the rule was you had to remove your clothes.


I met an older man. He ended up sucking my dick in one of the rooms as a few people watched.



I've had some interesting experiences.


I'm tired. I want my dick sucked. I want a boyfriend.

I want to wrap my legs around him with him deep inside me.

I want to be inside of him.


I hate being alone so much.



I've imagined if I could focus and get things done.

I have plans and goals. I need to figure out what to do and how to get myself to do these things.


I often look back on my life and the various experiences I've had...


Those hours in a van with his hand, inside of my shorts, grabbing my cock.

His penis in my mouth.

The two of us kissing.



Is my penis long enough? Is it thick enough? It looks different at different times.

I've received compliments on my cock. I don't if anyone finds me attractive.


I need to find my first boyfriend...

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