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Tuesday, March 18th, 2025

  Tuesday, March 18th, 2025


[Sometimes I imagine my life if things hadn't been so difficult,

If I hadn't been so different.

It's amazing to find the times gone are the times

You would Groundhog Day if you could.

I came across a moment on Google Street,

Before everything changed 

And if I could I would hug the you from that moment in time

Or forever live in that moment with you

Before things became more complicated 

Than I ever imagined life could become..."



Tuesday and I'm feeling tired. I feel the weight of decisions to be made,  decisions I postpone because I'm afraid of what those decisions will mean and the changes they will bring to my life.



I went to a few places yesterday and this morning I had a strange dream.



I'm so uncertain about everything but listening to Chappell Roan I feel somewhat inspired. I think Chappell is such an amazing person. 


I'm planning on attending a coloring program at the library in my community this evening.


I have plans for tomorrow. I plan to attend the Queer Collective Friday evening. Saturday there's a program at the library in my community. I don't know if I'll go anywhere Thursday because the forecast is calling for rain.



"Time is a crushing weight,

So many dates from my history

Remind me of my faults.

I can't pretend not to cry

Each time I reflect on the way things were before

All of those years I was stuck 

Inside a shell

Waiting to find a way out 

And become the person I've always been

Deep down inside..."

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