Saturday, March 15, 2025

  Saturday, March 15, 2025

It's my birthday. I'm still in bed. I had a strange dream. I was telling someone how dark it was outside despite being so late in the morning. Then there was a part of my dream in which it was dark and I was looking down a long street. It looked like lightning towards the other end of the street and suddenly a big round street light was lit by a bunch of workers who moved it into place.

I feel like having someone next to me. I feel like having a boyfriend so I wouldn't have to be in this bed alone. Earlier I thought about having a boyfriend and him being here on top of me and inside me. He would kiss me on the lips and kiss my neck while I wrapped my legs around him. I miss that physical touch. I need a boyfriend.

I didn't get the job at Funko. They didn't even interview me. I don't think I'll ever buy another Funko product. Now, I wish I hadn't bought all of the ones I've bought.

I didn't get the job at the Lego store which I knew they would not consider me since the job is in Illinois and I'm in rural south carolina.

I would have loved working at either Funko or Lego.

Today I'm going to a few places for my birthday freebies. This evening I'm going to the Queer Game Night.

I'm alone and horny. I'm depressed. I have no idea what I'm doing and I miss Tiger. It's been months now and I Still don't know how to deal with it. I'm in a place where changes are about to happen but I don't know when it will happen. I don't know what will happen when the time comes...