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Monday, January 27, 2025

 Monday, January 27, 2025







I wanted to remain in bed all day but I didn't. I'm trying to figure out what to do today. I have plans for Wednesday though Saturday.




I'm single. I've always been single. I've asked a handful of guys to be my boyfriend, over the years. and they either said no or they were not queer.




I think if I were able to that I'd adopt. I'm thinking that I would adopt an older child, maybe 7 or 8 or 9. I would be open to an older child up to 12 because I'm not interested in adopting a young adult.






I'm constantly anxious about everything and overwhelmed. I feel invisible. I want to find my first boyfriend soon but I don't know how to find an authentic guy who I'm attracted to who is attracted to me.








I want to begin my life but between my doubts and feelings of uncertainty I'm having a difficult time starting anything.






I need stability and I need a place of my own to call home.




I feel like I have no hope.



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