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 Friday, January 31, 2025 This evening I'm planning to attend a D&D program at the library in my community. I hope that the weather will be nice for riding my bicycle to and from the library. Tomorrow evening I'm going to the Queer Game Night. I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life. I'm interested in a first career and my first boyfriend. I'm considering my housing situation. I'm anxious about the fact that I could end up homeless. I will no longer use the meet-up site. It's a waste of time. Today is the last day of January. My depression remains even months since Tiger's death. I don't know what I'm doing to do...

 Thursday, January 30, 2025 I'm tired of my daily life. I'm tired of being alone most of the time.  This morning I went to my local library. I was planning to go somewhere else afterwards but I decided that I didn't want to go anywhere so I went home. I have plans for tomorrow evening. A D&D program at my local community library. Saturday I'm going to the Queer Game Night. I'm anxious about the future of this country. I live in a rural area, a rural state, and there's no opportunities for me here and I'm unable to move out of state to live in a city. I'm stuck here with no hope.

 Wednesday, January 29, 2025 I had a free lunch today. I'm going to have a free dinner this evening. I don't know what to do. I have no hope of finding my first career. I need help. I want to have a Zevo 600 to live in and travel in. Here is the link: https://www.groundedrvs.com/camper If you want to help please help me buy the van. My PayPal is:  Jasonwhitaker29171@yahoo.com  I have plans tomorrow morning and Friday evening. I'm going to the Queer Game Night Saturday. I hope to find my first boyfriend soon but I'm not interested in being with the wrong person.  I don't know what I'm going to do but I want to do something...

 Tuesday, January 28, 2025 Tuesday. It's 4:20. I feel tired but I want to get something done. The USPS has not delivered a few items recently including a gift card that I won and a coupon for free pancake mix.  I'm interested in starting my life but with the way things are going in my country I'll be lucky if anything good happens for me. I want my first boyfriend who I hope will one day propose to me and we'll have a wedding somewhere beautiful. I need my first home because I fear I'll end up homeless otherwise. I spend most of my time alone I doubt if anyone will ever read this. I'm depressed and tired of my life. Is there anyone out there who could help me? I have lunch plans for tomorrow. Thursday I have plans in the morning. Friday I'm going to a D&D program at the library in my neighborhood. Saturday I'm going to Queer Game Night. I want to work on my writing but I can't concentrate. My MacBook hasn't been working. I don't know what...

 Monday, January 27, 2025 I wanted to remain in bed all day but I didn't. I'm trying to figure out what to do today. I have plans for Wednesday though Saturday. I'm single. I've always been single. I've asked a handful of guys to be my boyfriend, over the years. and they either said no or they were not queer. I think if I were able to that I'd adopt. I'm thinking that I would adopt an older child, maybe 7 or 8 or 9. I would be open to an older child up to 12 because I'm not interested in adopting a young adult. I'm constantly anxious about everything and overwhelmed. I feel invisible. I want to find my first boyfriend soon but I don't know how to find an authentic guy who I'm attracted to who is attracted to me. I want to begin my life but between my doubts and feelings of uncertainty I'm having a difficult time starting anything. I need stability and I need a place of my own to call home. I feel like I have no hope.

 Sunday, January 26, 2025 I did laundry yesterday and I still haven't hung out my socks and underwear to dry. I don't have any plans for tomorrow.  There's things I've wanted to do but it's difficult to get myself to do anything.   One of the older men who sucked my D a few times in the past messaged me wanting me to top him. I'm considering it. I'm lonely and horny all the time. He told me that I have a beautiful cock and asked if I'd make a video of him sucking I. Is there a guy somewhere that would be attracted to me who I'd find attractive?

 Saturday, January 25, 2025  Saturday, January 25, 2025 Saturday. I feel the solitude. My entire life I've known I'm different. I thought I was getting help from the SCDDSN but I don't think they will... I'm uncertain about my future and what the future holds for me. I'm anxious about everything. I want my first boyfriend soon. I need my first career. I need my first home. I don't know how anyone finds these things. I'm no longer going to meet older me from the internet. I always felt weird after the old men I met would suck my.... When I lived in California I did meet a few guys my age but I have not had a boyfriend. I posted on LinkedIn asking for someone to hire me. I know from the lack of a response that I'm not getting hired due to discrimination. I have plans starting Wednesday...

 Friday, January 24, 2025 I'm depressed. I think about the fact that the odds of me finding my first career and first boyfriend are worse than winning the lottery without buying a lottery ticket. I spend almost everyday and every hour alone. I don't have plans the next few days. I want to work on my writing and other things but I feel like going to bed most of the time. March 15 will be my birthday. As usual I won't have a party and I won't have any gifts. I don't know what to do and I don't think anyone can help me. I don't know why I keep going...

 Thursday, January 23, 2025 I went to the library near me for a program I've been attending weekly for the past couple of weeks. I only found out that the program was canceled for the day when I arrived at the library and waited for the program to begin. I deleted my Taimi profile because I realized that spending anymore time on there would be a waste of time.  I went to Walmart today and redeemed the two coupons for Edward's pies. Individual pies, two slices each box. I don't plan to go anywhere tomorrow. I often imagine what it'd be like to have my first boyfriend. What it would be like to have my first career. What it'd be like to live in my first home...

 Wednesday, January 22, 2025 Last night there was snow. I didn't believe it would snow but it did. I stayed in bed later today because I didn't want to get out of bed. I have plans for tomorrow morning. I'm anxious about the future. 

 Tuesday, January 21, 2025 It's cold. There's a chance of snow today. I had a ride to pick up some produce. I don't plan to go anywhere else today. I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow because of the weather. I have plans for Thursday and Friday. I feel like going to bed. I want to work on my writing but I don't know if I have the energy to do much of anything today. I often wonder if I'll ever find my first boyfriend...

 Monday, January 20, 2025 Today is a day of mourning as this country moves closer to being a dictatorship. I'm anxious about what's going to happen next. I have plans for this week. It's cold today and this week. I had several strange and vivid dreams. I feel tired. I need to get something done today because I feel like I never get anything done. I want to find my first boyfriend soon.

 Sunday, January 19, 2025 I went to Queer Game Night last night. There were 2 cute guys there last night. We played the Ticket to Ride Europe game I received for Christmas. I need to read the rules a few times before I play it again. I stayed in bed late today and I feel like going back to bed. I believe if the TikTok ban is not done away with then we should revolt. We should stop the silencing of our voices by the rich and powerful who run the country. I'm open to any guy asking me on dates. I'm single and ready for my first boyfriend. Please don't be shy. I'm not interested in older men, older generations. I'm open to being friends with the older generations. I sat by one of them last night. I don't want to have a romantic relationship with someone of those older generations. I don't know what I'll do the rest of this day. I want to work on my writing. I'm looking to begin my first career. It's not going to be easy for me considering I'm Au...

 Saturday, January 18, 2025 Yesterday while riding my new bicycle to the Queer Collective program I was reminded of the fact that I live in a rural state with a large population of naive people. Most of the time I miss living in a city. This evening I'm attending the Queer Game Night. It rained today so it will be damp and cold tonight. I plan to begin writing on a daily basis but I don't know when I'll start. I keep entering sweepstakes for houses with the hope of winning a home so that I will not be homeless in the future. My new bicycle is perfect for my longer bike rides. I hope to figure something in regards to my first career soon...

 Friday, January 17, 2025 It appears that TikTok will be banned in the next few days. This shows how the government of the US is not a democracy. Why are politicians afraid of the people having a platform to share our thoughts? People keep saying how great Biden was but if he was so great he would not have signed into law a ban on the voices of the people of this country. F$%K Biden. I was on a dating app and I matched with someone. We started a conversation and I thought things were going well and then they blocked me. Is it possible for me to meet a real person who I'm attracted to who's attracted to me? I've had a few dreams that included the band Twenty one pilots. I love the band. I need someone to share my day to day life with, someone to cuddle with, and someone to have sex with... I have to be attracted to this person. If I'm not attracted to them we could still be friends but nothing beyond friends. I feel weird about my body. I feel very unattractive. I wonder...

 Thursday, January 16, 2025 I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life. I am considering writing each day.  I'm considering going somewhere tomorrow evening and Saturday evening. I don't if I will go anywhere tomorrow or Saturday because of the weather. I haven't done much today because I didn't have the energy to do anything more...

 Wednesday, January 15, 2025 I was given a new bicycle today. I'm uncertain about my plans for the next few days due to potential rain. I've exercised at home today and I plan to exercise more this evening. I need to do something with my writing. I also need to do something with my photography and video. I hope to find my first boyfriend soon. I have been entering to win the HGTV house but I don't think I'll ever win a house. Ì feel like going to bed but I want to get something done before I go to bed.

 Tuesday, January 14, 2025 I'm tired. I went to CVS and Food Lion today. A free container of Starbucks instant coffee was delivered by UPS today. I don't have any plans for tomorrow. I have plans for the next three days. It's cold and I feel like going to bed. I wonder if I will be single forever. Is there a guy out there who can love me? I need someone but not anyone. I need the right person for me. I have no idea what I'm doing. I was thinking about setting up a gofundme to raise money for an electric camper to live in and travel in. I would place all of my possessions in storage. Does anyone want to date me? Would anyone want to marry me?

 Monday, January 13, 2025 I wonder if it's possible for me to find my first boyfriend and obtain my first career. I feel like I can't do anything to change my life for the better.  I received fabric samples for a wedding dress today. I often imagine meeting someone someday and him proposing to me. I imagine our wedding and I was recently considering what I would wear to my wedding. I spend most of my time alone.  I don't feel like doing much of anything but there's so much I want to do... I want to learn how to play drums. I have a drum set but not a space to have it setup. I want to have my own home and space to do the creative things that interest me.

 Sunday, January 12, 2025 I went to bed late yesterday. I was horny and lonely last night. I wonder why no one ever asks me out on dates. I think I'm ugly and not attractive. It seems like no one will ever find me attractive. I wonder if my cock is big enough. I wonder if I have a nice cock. I've been told that I have a nice cock but did they truly mean it? I want a boyfriend to share my life and my bed with. I don't know what I'm doing this week. I hope to have a first career and my first boyfriend soon...

 Saturday, January 11, 2025 There was no snow where I live. It was cold and I could hear the freezing rain on the roof. I didn't go anywhere yesterday or today. I have been exercising at home. I need a boyfriend. I don't know how I will find my first boyfriend. It's Saturday. The weather changed how these past couple of days have been.  I don't know what I'm doing next week but this week is ending tonight.

 Thursday, January 09, 2025 I went to the library near me this morning and attended a program. I went to Walgreens and Firehouse Subs. It's cold. The accessibility day at the museum and the Autism program at the library have been canceled. I plan to remain home tomorrow and Saturday. I feel like going to bed.

 Wednesday, January 08, 2025  Wednesday, January 08, 2025 It's Wednesday. I am going to a program in the morning at the library near me. Friday I will attend the Autism program at the library in the town across the river from my community. Saturday I'm going to the museum for the accessibility day and on my way home I'll go by and pick up a free lunch. My macbook hasn't been working recently but I am able to continue with most things except for viewing my calendar. I want a boyfriend, my first boyfriend, but I won't settle for anyone other than the person I would want to marry someday. I hope things improve for m. I won a 20$ gift card this morning. I'm anxious about the future...

 Tuesday, January 07, 2025 Tuesday. I went to Ace Hardware store and Five Below today.  I'm going to pick up some produce tomorrow. I don't know when the snow was supposed to occur but I haven't seen any. I'm tired. It was a long walk today.

 Monday, January 06, 2025 Monday. I've exercised a few times today.  I had planned to work on my writing today but I couldn't remember where I placed  my notebooks with my notes on my writing. I'm considering going somewhere tomorrow.  I had strange dreams. Tyler from Twenty one pilots was in my dream. Saturday I'm going to the museum for the accessibility day. The forecast is calling for rain on Saturday.

 Sunday, January 05, 2025 Sunday. My MacBook pro is not working again so I'm on my Samsung tablet.  There's a possibility of snow this week. I don't know what I'm doing this week except for Wednesday when I will go pick up some produce.  I wonder what it would be like to have my first boyfriend. A first career would be great as well. I want to focus on certain things and get them done but it's not easy for me. I don't know what I'm doing and what I'm going to do.   

 Saturday, January 04, 2024 Saturday. This morning I woke up several times. My right eye is bothering me today. I plan to go to Walgreens after writing this blog. This evening I am going to the Queer Game Night. I need to figure out how to sync the Macbook Pro calendar with my Samsung phone calendar. I did not work on my writing yesterday. I forgot to work on my writing because I was anxious about my computer. It appears to be working again. It is cold. There is a chance of snow soon. Maybe next week. I wonder if I will ever have a boyfriend. I would like to have one. I have one cat now. It's strange only having one cat after having 3 for so many years. I am going by the post office on my way to the Queer Game Night. Something is arriving today. I have been playing the new Switch and the Switch Game I recently won. I like the game. It's a Mario Game. I already have Mario Kart. ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https:/...

 Friday, January 03, 2025

 Wednesday, January 01, 2025 It is almost eleven PM on Wednesday, January 01, 2025. I have not written in my blogs since September. I had to take a break from my blogs and my daily videos. I will not do a daily video today or I do not believe that I will do one today. Maybe, I will change my mind and do one. I have been depressed. I am depressed. I do not know what to do without Tiger. I miss him so much. I plan to go to the CWC library tomorrow morning for their mystery movie program to watch a movie and have some popcorn. I do not know what I am doing on Saturday because I may end up going somewhere and missing the Queer Game Night. I plan to continue attending programs at the center, the CWC library, and the Autism program at the Richland County library. I hope to begin writing and reading again. I plan to play video games more and do some coloring at home. I do not know what this new year will bring to me. I won a Switch OLED and it is arriving soon. I have won a few other thin...