Saturday, September 27, 2025 I'm sitting here watching The American Housewife. I'm watching it again. I'm tired. I attended the trans longue support group last night. It's through the Los Angeles LGBTQ center and it is every Friday night. I keep thinking about past moments while trying to avoid triggering moments. I imagine being back in California. It's been so long. I know things won't be exactly like they were when I was there before but there's no place that would be like things were before. I thought about the idea of moving back to the Columbia area but things would not be the way they were before. I lived down there for years and if I lived there again nothing would change. I want to live somewhere familiar with the potential for change. I need familiar but I also need the possibility for something completely different. I'm tired of being stuck. I've felt stuck these past few years. I miss my old routine. The only way to move forward is to mo...