Sunday, April 06, 2025 I went to an Autism event and Queer Game Night yesterday. This evening I'm planning to attend a dinner. I thought that if I keep getting out and going to things that I would meet someone who would become my first boyfriend. I received some strange messages on Insta from someone appearing to be a MAGMA cult member. I'm uncertain what else I'll do today. I have plans for this week. I need to work on some things this week.
Saturday, April 05, 2025 It's Saturday and I have plans for today. I'm going to a program at 2 and then I will go to the Queer Game Night. I'm planning on going to the dinner tomorrow. I have no idea what else I'm doing next week. I often look back on the times when I would meet guys from the internet. Many of these guys were older men who'd suck my dick. There were some who were my age. There were a few who I was attracted to and I'd been open to a relationship with if I had thought that a relationship was an option. I have never had a boyfriend. I want my first boyfriend. There are some things I need to get done but it's just overwhelming. I don't know what I'm doing. I just drift through each day hoping that tomorrow will be better.